8:25am Marcie Rendon me too i just got back from ubergrandmaschoolrun
here i sit, in this coffee shop,
answering emails and heart missing each of you - i will see you on thursday!
ubergrandmaschoolrun..... can that be a verb or only a
8:29am Marcie Rendon as i left the house at 7am i thought goddamnit i forgot my computer but with dog and lunch bag and cup of tea and keys i couldn't imagine returning into house for one more thing uberetc - english ojibwe verbish
animate or inanimate? or does that
depend on the time of the day? i mean.... mornings, y'know.
(i am trying to show off the ojibwe that i've been
learning.... did i succeed?)
8:32am Marcie Rendon LOL better than me LOL
in a past lifetime I must have been a very bad taxi driver who accidently ran over someone or robbed people of their fares by driving them miles out of their way because this lifetime I spend inordinate amounts of time driving here and there, one person here, another there, never a fare in return.
what?? i don't have any pictures of me in a car? will need to rectify that shortly.
and so we are into the end of the first month of the 2015-16 school year. Once again on driver duty. Why you ask? It is the same question I ask. My answer is this: I want this grandchild to have a chance to follow her dream. To maybe know what her dream is or can be. She is so willing to give up on herself and let others dictate what she should do and how she should do it. She is the one to try make everyone happy, please them all, at any cost to herself. And so I drag my tired old self out of bed each morning at 6:25, get her at 7, drop her off at 7:44 and repeat the process at 3pm.
I also avoid making catty remarks about other folks’ perfect children. The ones going to law school and making the deans list and doing community service. Some days all I can claim is that my children keep the social workers and treatment providers employed. But this I also truly know. My children are very good people. There is no pretense there. They do not hurt other people-either with words or action or side-eye looks. They are not cruel or pretentious.
I took one granddaughter to the zoo on Sunday. She has allergies. We brought a water bottle for her because her throat was scratchy. I said I was thirsty and she said, “You might catch what I have or I would share with you.” Very thoughtful for an 9 year old. She also walked slowly with me although she very desperately wanted to run to see the chickens. All of the children in that daughter’s family ask me, “Grandma, how was your day?” It is very sweet considering how many folks drain me each and every day without thought or consideration.
Maybe at another time I will write more about a very patriotic event I recently attended where I had to grip my chair to stop from dropping to one knee as 3-400 folks stood for the national anthem. Oh, it was so tempting – but I practiced ultimate self-control. It wasn't a football game.